The Warriors & Scions

The past couple of weeks have been insane, full of mystification, yet impressively spiritual. My personal walk with Christ is improving, yet I still long for romance. God has let me know that He should be the source of all my love, but my longing is for physical intimacy. Not sex, I could care less about that right now, but to fulfill my love tank that runs off of physical touch. I yearn for Mary Beth, what can I say?…

God made me a promise, a promise of Brit Chadasha, which are the literal Hebrew words for New Covenant through Blood. Warriors will fight for their love, even till death, and I want to be a warrior of Christ. I don’t want to love another, but my flesh is telling me I need her. I don’t, I know, and I seek God’s face daily to convince my flesh I only need God. It’s a journey that’ll never end, but one that will get easier. I wonder most days if I’m meant to be a modern day Paul, and live my life fighting the good fight and nothing else.

God says He’ll fulfill the desires of any man’s heart, if it advances the kingdom of heaven and people come to identify Him through it. My desires are to be married, and have a little girl, and a son around the same time Jon McNabb has his so they can be paramount buds too. I’ve come to comprehend that my desires don’t always match up to God’s plans for me, but they are desires none-the-less. The only thing that seems to really bother me is if she fills the same. I feel a blazing fire in my soul for her, and God isn’t taking it away, nor is it fading. They say time heals all, but I say God healings all on HIS time.

Now that I got that out into the open it’s time for the Scion! That’s right; God blessed me with the most phenomenal vehicle in the world, a 2006 Scion tC. I love it so much, and I couldn’t ask for any other car to match up to it. It was God’s will for me to have it, and because of that I will treasure it. He showed me that even in the most cynical situations He shows up and performs astonishing acts of love. I give God all the credit, and every time someone asks me about it I make sure I elucidate it was by God’s clemency I received it.

On a concluding thought, I’d like to express gratitude to everybody for showing me love these past couple of weeks. It’s been a tough battle in the valley, and I know the war has only begun. I pray for all my family (the saved and the lost), for Mansour (my temporary Muslim friend), Steve Ware and his wife, Pastor Dino and Delynn, and my entire church family. I also pray for the homeless in our inner-city of Baton Rouge. I pray that Alice Cole and the entire crew at the 2 Baton Rouge Dream Centers gain favor with the homeless and lost. I pray the world comes to know Followers of Christ as much more than hypocrites, judgmental fools, or blasphemers. I also pray for God’s judgment on me. That He’ll show me my skeletons and the way to burn them. I love you all, and my heart will always belong to developing friends that are lost and dieing.