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Thursday, November 29, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Mighty Warrior
These past couple of weeks have been crazy. A promise was slowly getting the best of me, and I couldn't forgive someone for hurting me worse than anybody has before. Last night during Elevate class we watched some ISOM videos on Worship, which turned out to be the BEST VIDEOS in the ISOM series. I had the longing to get on my face and praise Him right then and there. I got a breakthrough along with this, which turned out that I'm not giving God enough worship/personal time with Him.
I got home, went in my bedroom, turned out the lights, turned on some Hillsong and Rick Pino, and fell to the floor praising His name. All of my struggles, anxieties, pains, and unforgiveness broke and left my heart. My spirit was broken for an hour. I laid it all down, and God destroyed all the barriars I had put up around me. One in particular, unforgivenness, put up a fight, but in the end God prevailed. I never felt so much peace and tranquility. I long to praise His name again, and I did a little this morning and while driving to work.
One song that hit me the hardest, and put me right in the presence of God was Rick Pino's song 'Mighty Warrior.' I suggest checking out his album 'Weapons of Warfare.' It's such a spirit filled and glorying album!
Jonathan and I have decided to start a twice weekly worship session together. I've also devoted my life to bringing Him all my praises daily for now on. I want that peace I felt every day, and for the rest of my life. For the first time I stopped thinking about Mary Beth, and starting thinking about God in all His glory!!!
I got home, went in my bedroom, turned out the lights, turned on some Hillsong and Rick Pino, and fell to the floor praising His name. All of my struggles, anxieties, pains, and unforgiveness broke and left my heart. My spirit was broken for an hour. I laid it all down, and God destroyed all the barriars I had put up around me. One in particular, unforgivenness, put up a fight, but in the end God prevailed. I never felt so much peace and tranquility. I long to praise His name again, and I did a little this morning and while driving to work.
One song that hit me the hardest, and put me right in the presence of God was Rick Pino's song 'Mighty Warrior.' I suggest checking out his album 'Weapons of Warfare.' It's such a spirit filled and glorying album!
Jonathan and I have decided to start a twice weekly worship session together. I've also devoted my life to bringing Him all my praises daily for now on. I want that peace I felt every day, and for the rest of my life. For the first time I stopped thinking about Mary Beth, and starting thinking about God in all His glory!!!
Monday, November 12, 2007
Revelations & Honor
So yeah, I know you guys are probably tired of hearing me talk about how much I miss Mary Beth, but God gave me a revelation last night. While reading the book 'God's Armor Bearer' by Terry Nance I came across this paragraph:
These words by Mr. Nance hit me hard. Here I am, drowning in my own sorrows and depression, missing the one woman I've ever truly loved, and God is working everything out right in front of me. Mary Beth gave up so much to follow God's commandment for this season in her life. I know her pretty well, and God spoke to me a lot. Her sorrow is still there, she just knows how to hold it in better than me. I know she still loves me, and I her. The rules of Elevate suggested that full-time interns shouldn't date, so they could focus on God 100%. God knew these rules before Elevate was ever created, and He's making sure she follows these.
I honor Mary Beth, second to God, for doing this. I will wait patiently, until the day God releases her from this commitment. I can't keep getting depressed and 'whooh is me' every time I see her looking at me. It's going to be a hard 6 months, but I've decided to stop letting the enemy take my joy and gifts from God. I need to focus everything I have on God, and when God is ready He will unite us again, if it's His will. Which I pray every day that these feelings and promises I feel from God are not false.
I want to finish up by praying for my family. I haven't spoke with my mom in a while, and the last time I did she had finally been filled with the Spirit of God and received the gift of tongues. I pray she's still walking in faith, and has found an accountability partner to mentor her. I pray for my pastor, Dino, and his family, to keep fighting the good fight, and keep receiving the Word to guide us through times of trial. I pray for the full-time Elevators. With all of their finances, food, and commitments. I pray for China, and all the lost, sick, and poor throughout the world, that they may come to know Jesus, and take this world by storm. I pray for my emotions, because i've been a wreck these past few months. I pray for my purity, that I keep my eyes on God, and nothing else. God help me become more faithful, that I may call on the name of my Lord whenever I'm walking through trials or on the mountain. Lastly, I pray for peace. I need peace, and your hand to guide me through these next 6 months. I love you God, with all my heart, mind, and spirit. I long for the day I get to be in your presence, sit at your feet, drink from your cup, and weep with joy!
Personal feelings must be laid aside when you make a decision to serve God in whatever ministry He puts you. After all, He knew all the rules and regulations of that ministry before He put you there.
These words by Mr. Nance hit me hard. Here I am, drowning in my own sorrows and depression, missing the one woman I've ever truly loved, and God is working everything out right in front of me. Mary Beth gave up so much to follow God's commandment for this season in her life. I know her pretty well, and God spoke to me a lot. Her sorrow is still there, she just knows how to hold it in better than me. I know she still loves me, and I her. The rules of Elevate suggested that full-time interns shouldn't date, so they could focus on God 100%. God knew these rules before Elevate was ever created, and He's making sure she follows these.
I honor Mary Beth, second to God, for doing this. I will wait patiently, until the day God releases her from this commitment. I can't keep getting depressed and 'whooh is me' every time I see her looking at me. It's going to be a hard 6 months, but I've decided to stop letting the enemy take my joy and gifts from God. I need to focus everything I have on God, and when God is ready He will unite us again, if it's His will. Which I pray every day that these feelings and promises I feel from God are not false.
I want to finish up by praying for my family. I haven't spoke with my mom in a while, and the last time I did she had finally been filled with the Spirit of God and received the gift of tongues. I pray she's still walking in faith, and has found an accountability partner to mentor her. I pray for my pastor, Dino, and his family, to keep fighting the good fight, and keep receiving the Word to guide us through times of trial. I pray for the full-time Elevators. With all of their finances, food, and commitments. I pray for China, and all the lost, sick, and poor throughout the world, that they may come to know Jesus, and take this world by storm. I pray for my emotions, because i've been a wreck these past few months. I pray for my purity, that I keep my eyes on God, and nothing else. God help me become more faithful, that I may call on the name of my Lord whenever I'm walking through trials or on the mountain. Lastly, I pray for peace. I need peace, and your hand to guide me through these next 6 months. I love you God, with all my heart, mind, and spirit. I long for the day I get to be in your presence, sit at your feet, drink from your cup, and weep with joy!
Friday, November 9, 2007
Fighting The Good Fight
Waking up thinking about the one thing I may never have again is brutal. I'm tired of feeling empty, so I'm going on a fast starting tomorrow. A week long of no food, and only water. I need to seek God, forget about the person I long for the most, and FIGHT MY FIGHT!
I trust in you for life to live, and air to breath. Purity fills my lungs. I no longer live in solitude, no longer bound. My heart beats with great devotion. This is the start to a new beginning. On my knees praying for mercy. Hands raised high, humble and broken. Wanting your grace, wanting your security. Memories of laying facedown, motionless, with such a hollow feeling inside. Soon I would end this life I was living. I am just a man with a heart and sinful hands. I am a fallen victim. Lord, show me the way. Let my words be your words, let my thoughts be your thoughts. Let my words be your words, Lord show me the way. I ask of you Father, to you, I give my praise. Show me the way, take me in your arms, never let me go. Righteous in your all. Lord, show me the way, as I give myself to you. Never let me go. Hold me with your everlasting love. Be my strength. Be my voice, my glory. SET ME FREE!!!
They drove their torches into the ground.
Watching as the ice began to melt away.
The enemy’s grasp was broken by the power of fire.
And a great multitude of souls were reclaimed from the ice.
But there were many others that did not respond.
To the presence of fire.
They remained frozen.
Enslaved in darkness, forever.
When the mountains crumble into the sea.
When the stars fall from the heavens and scorch the earth.
Then every knee will bow before the flame.
And every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.
Forever!
I trust in you for life to live, and air to breath. Purity fills my lungs. I no longer live in solitude, no longer bound. My heart beats with great devotion. This is the start to a new beginning. On my knees praying for mercy. Hands raised high, humble and broken. Wanting your grace, wanting your security. Memories of laying facedown, motionless, with such a hollow feeling inside. Soon I would end this life I was living. I am just a man with a heart and sinful hands. I am a fallen victim. Lord, show me the way. Let my words be your words, let my thoughts be your thoughts. Let my words be your words, Lord show me the way. I ask of you Father, to you, I give my praise. Show me the way, take me in your arms, never let me go. Righteous in your all. Lord, show me the way, as I give myself to you. Never let me go. Hold me with your everlasting love. Be my strength. Be my voice, my glory. SET ME FREE!!!
They drove their torches into the ground.
Watching as the ice began to melt away.
The enemy’s grasp was broken by the power of fire.
And a great multitude of souls were reclaimed from the ice.
But there were many others that did not respond.
To the presence of fire.
They remained frozen.
Enslaved in darkness, forever.
When the mountains crumble into the sea.
When the stars fall from the heavens and scorch the earth.
Then every knee will bow before the flame.
And every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.
Forever!
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
The Warriors & Scions
The past couple of weeks have been insane, full of mystification, yet impressively spiritual. My personal walk with Christ is improving, yet I still long for romance. God has let me know that He should be the source of all my love, but my longing is for physical intimacy. Not sex, I could care less about that right now, but to fulfill my love tank that runs off of physical touch. I yearn for Mary Beth, what can I say?…
God made me a promise, a promise of Brit Chadasha, which are the literal Hebrew words for New Covenant through Blood. Warriors will fight for their love, even till death, and I want to be a warrior of Christ. I don’t want to love another, but my flesh is telling me I need her. I don’t, I know, and I seek God’s face daily to convince my flesh I only need God. It’s a journey that’ll never end, but one that will get easier. I wonder most days if I’m meant to be a modern day Paul, and live my life fighting the good fight and nothing else.
God says He’ll fulfill the desires of any man’s heart, if it advances the kingdom of heaven and people come to identify Him through it. My desires are to be married, and have a little girl, and a son around the same time Jon McNabb has his so they can be paramount buds too. I’ve come to comprehend that my desires don’t always match up to God’s plans for me, but they are desires none-the-less. The only thing that seems to really bother me is if she fills the same. I feel a blazing fire in my soul for her, and God isn’t taking it away, nor is it fading. They say time heals all, but I say God healings all on HIS time.
Now that I got that out into the open it’s time for the Scion! That’s right; God blessed me with the most phenomenal vehicle in the world, a 2006 Scion tC. I love it so much, and I couldn’t ask for any other car to match up to it. It was God’s will for me to have it, and because of that I will treasure it. He showed me that even in the most cynical situations He shows up and performs astonishing acts of love. I give God all the credit, and every time someone asks me about it I make sure I elucidate it was by God’s clemency I received it.
On a concluding thought, I’d like to express gratitude to everybody for showing me love these past couple of weeks. It’s been a tough battle in the valley, and I know the war has only begun. I pray for all my family (the saved and the lost), for Mansour (my temporary Muslim friend), Steve Ware and his wife, Pastor Dino and Delynn, and my entire church family. I also pray for the homeless in our inner-city of Baton Rouge. I pray that Alice Cole and the entire crew at the 2 Baton Rouge Dream Centers gain favor with the homeless and lost. I pray the world comes to know Followers of Christ as much more than hypocrites, judgmental fools, or blasphemers. I also pray for God’s judgment on me. That He’ll show me my skeletons and the way to burn them. I love you all, and my heart will always belong to developing friends that are lost and dieing.
God made me a promise, a promise of Brit Chadasha, which are the literal Hebrew words for New Covenant through Blood. Warriors will fight for their love, even till death, and I want to be a warrior of Christ. I don’t want to love another, but my flesh is telling me I need her. I don’t, I know, and I seek God’s face daily to convince my flesh I only need God. It’s a journey that’ll never end, but one that will get easier. I wonder most days if I’m meant to be a modern day Paul, and live my life fighting the good fight and nothing else.
God says He’ll fulfill the desires of any man’s heart, if it advances the kingdom of heaven and people come to identify Him through it. My desires are to be married, and have a little girl, and a son around the same time Jon McNabb has his so they can be paramount buds too. I’ve come to comprehend that my desires don’t always match up to God’s plans for me, but they are desires none-the-less. The only thing that seems to really bother me is if she fills the same. I feel a blazing fire in my soul for her, and God isn’t taking it away, nor is it fading. They say time heals all, but I say God healings all on HIS time.
Now that I got that out into the open it’s time for the Scion! That’s right; God blessed me with the most phenomenal vehicle in the world, a 2006 Scion tC. I love it so much, and I couldn’t ask for any other car to match up to it. It was God’s will for me to have it, and because of that I will treasure it. He showed me that even in the most cynical situations He shows up and performs astonishing acts of love. I give God all the credit, and every time someone asks me about it I make sure I elucidate it was by God’s clemency I received it.
On a concluding thought, I’d like to express gratitude to everybody for showing me love these past couple of weeks. It’s been a tough battle in the valley, and I know the war has only begun. I pray for all my family (the saved and the lost), for Mansour (my temporary Muslim friend), Steve Ware and his wife, Pastor Dino and Delynn, and my entire church family. I also pray for the homeless in our inner-city of Baton Rouge. I pray that Alice Cole and the entire crew at the 2 Baton Rouge Dream Centers gain favor with the homeless and lost. I pray the world comes to know Followers of Christ as much more than hypocrites, judgmental fools, or blasphemers. I also pray for God’s judgment on me. That He’ll show me my skeletons and the way to burn them. I love you all, and my heart will always belong to developing friends that are lost and dieing.
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