Passive Aggressive

So, I spent Sunday after church with my beautiful girlfriend, Marybeth. I call her today to ask if she wanted to hang out today, but she said Joy already asked her to come over. I got pretty upset, considering that Marybeth is going into Elevate, ministry internship, and will be spending 9 fully awake months with Joy, and maybe one day a month with me. I got past the selfishness of the whole ordeal, that is, until tonight. God, control my lips, my thoughts, and my behavior. She called me passive aggressive because I was letting her know that I was hurt, but I don't think that applies. I just hurts me that thinking back 2 months ago, she couldn't go a day without seeing me. Now, she's satisfied with 10 hours a week. I miss Marybeth, and the times we shared. I kind of figured she'd want to spend as much time as possible together before a calling of Christ is taking 20 hours/day of her life for 9 months. If that's selfish, I'm guilty. I'm sorry for wanting to spend time with her...