My Supplier, My Desire

The time came for my finances for DTS to be due. I was still short about $1500USD, and I had exhausted all my options (or so I thought). The finances were due 8 days ago (Friday November 14) at midnight. I went into intercessory prayer at 7pm that night, and the next thing I knew it was 10:30pm. Having being exhausted, and burned out from praying, fasting, and worshiping, I decided to head to bed. At about 11:30pm Josh, head DTS leader, called me to let me know all my finances had come in.

While worshiping God had spoken to me about my finances. He asked me if I was willing to give up the rest of my earthly belongings (MAC, iPod, iPhone, Nintendo DS). I fought the idea for a while, but finally called Josh and asked him to send out a base-wide YWAM email telling everybody my MAC and iPhone were up for sale. I got a phone call later from Josh telling me Dane Myers was interested in buying my MAC, and that he and his wife were in the process of praying about it. I hung up the phone and broke down. I cried out to God for guidance and comfort. They never called back.

I now know that God was testing me. I promised to give up everything on His command to follow Him. He wasn't doing it to see what I would do. He already knew what I would do. But it was a test for me. It showed me exactly where my priorities were, and it was such an exciting moment. I am who I say I am. I'm a follower of Christ. One that doesn't put anything in front of God. One that gets humbled every day by the grace of God. I'm forever changed, and the enemy will never take my faith away...