When In The Dark

These past couple of days have been a trial I will never forget. I'm in the dark, and Mr. David said today that 2 to 3 years from now I'll be able to see what God was doing. I'm official blind right now, and all I have left is to keep walking. I can't see a thing, not even that stereotypical 'light at the end of the tunnel'. I've lost everything, and Craig Boutte said this is the time God has set aside to show me where my priorities are, and where they should be. All the plans I had for myself have failed, and the struggles I've endured seem irrelevant now. I'm at that inevitable crossroad now...do or die. The place where every follower of Christ much stumble across. I'm fortunate enough to deal with this decision early in my walk, unlike some many people before, during, and after me. Rock bottom doesn't even come close to the state I'm in right now.

I hit rock bottom the day she denounced her love for me, and now I'm at the core. The core is fear. The core of despair. But like Paul said, God is merciful, and He'll never bring us through something without an escape. My flesh is weak, and my soul is weaker, but soon, my flesh will be strong and my soul will be unstoppable. I'm meant for more than most people could even imagine, and I'll be darn if the enemy will take away what I've ventured so hard to obtain. I'm a warrior, and God will set me FREE!!!