A Modern-Day Paul

I sometimes wonder, sometimes, if I'm truly meant to be a modern-day Paul more than anything. He spent his entire life on this world witnessing to people, no matter the situation, location, or cause. Because he devoted his life to God he felt everything else was pointless, including a wife. He even says in Corinthians that a person shouldn't get married unless he/she can't control their sexual urges. To be up front, my promise from God seems to be dying. I'm not losing my faith, but still I just wonder. Am I a modern-day Paul?

The Present

For the longest time, and still today, I think about the future. Something I heard a long time along for my youth pastor, Robbie Sparks in VA, is that the enemy reminds us of our mistakes and sins of the past, and tries to trouble us with the promises of the future. I have many promises of the future. Some little, and some lifetime. I have no trouble with the past. I do have my more than fair share of sins of the past, but I know God has forgiven me, so they don't effect me. It's the future that buckles my knees.

You see, a promise of a wife is pure, and spiritual. I will marry once, and ONLY once. She will be my one, and I will be her one. The problem is that I have a promise, and I don't have the faith to see it, nor stop worrying about it, and live the promise of now. In a nutshell. God doesn't promise tomorrow, not even an hour from now, but He does promise NOW!

Something I heard, and has stuck with me since, is an old Chinese saying. That saying is, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why we call it the present." The future is blind, but I promise to hold on to my promises from God. Whether they are inhumanly impossible or not. Because, God loves to work in the impossible and show off His amazing grace.