Love: Weakness Or Blessing?

I always thought I'd be married before I turned 30, be in love for the rest of my life, and die with my wife in my arms. However, ever since I decided to finally stop running from God, and follow my calling as a church bringer, I've realized that God is such a jealous Father. He needs to be first; in my finances, time, life, love, etc. Once I realized this, all my expectations on marriage got shot out the window. To be honest, in 2 years I don't know what I'll be doing. My goal is to rekindle my love, but it's truly in God's hands.

Love is such an emotional burden when it's not time, but can be such a blessing when you have a promise, and you know the love God has planned for you. Looking to God for all your answers is hard, but that's faith. Like the lyrics from August Burns Red's song, Black Sheep:

You’ve fallen captive to what you thought would save you, what you thought would clean your slate.
You’re in the thick of it now and you have swallowed the hook.
What’s done is done.
We’ll continue on with or without you.
Pain must exist in order for healing to survive.
Neither one will ever serve their purpose alone.
You’ve fallen in love with a dream you’ve never had.
You’ve fallen in love with a surreal way of living.
To late to wake, farewell and good luck to you.
See you at the end.
Too late to wake, to lay too waste.
I’m throwing in the towel.
This is my goodbye.
Don’t worry.
We saw through your trickery, and were coming out alive.
See you at the end.
What was once your life is now lifeless.
What was once your life is now your jail cell.

I want to concentrate on the italicized/bold part of the lyrics. God always brings us through trials to show, teach, or disciple us on things we need to grow stronger in. My current trial is exactly a trial of healing. I was first feeling nothing but pain, but while God worked on my heart, He showed me some things that were hindering my walk. If it wasn't for going through this seemingly unbearable pain, I would of never noticed the locked doors in my heart. I know the promise God has planned for me about my wife. I now wait patiently for the day she's back in my life!